i dont know man. It just feeling so fucking lonely and sad nowadays. its so different from 6 years ago, where j can anytime hook up with bros and talked the whole night about my problems i was facing and get solutions tgt. I hv grown up to a mother fucker 27 uears old adult now. Its so hard to get someone to have dinner or yum cha and talk to each other sincerely. i have a girlfriend now, however doesnt mean i can talk to her my problem just like my old times bros. we were so naive and bullshit. I remember a best bro of mine call thomas, we were fucking acting like we were in the left 4 dead zombie war in my house and we fucking pretend there as a witch inside my bedroom. I opened the bedroom door slowly and pretend the witch was shouting (it was ready to hunt you down), and we run like fuck! Damn good old times man, thomas, my fucking dearest bro. The most trusted and best listener in mynlife. Thanks for appearing in my life u fucking cunt. Come back to the reality, whenever i am having a problem regardless big or small i barey or sometimes cant even find a friend to talk to. Its getting lonelier than before. I remember i had good times in curtin uni during my pre-u studies. Friends made a birhday video for me. I was so touched, i think i teared abit that time. now, those dudes sort of hv forgotten me. I have lost contact woth them. The most hurting part for my this year's birthday is, my gf just fucking bought a random two pieces of cakes from komuji (cant even recall what the fuck is the shop name - its a famous japnese bread shop but they also selling cakes). I dont really see any efforts from her or maybe she just dont take it seriously. Two pieces of fucking cakes without any or related birthdy wishes on it and no candles! Fuck that shit. When i saw the cales, i was stunned for a sec and coz of she was still beside me, i had to pretend i was happy for the cakes. This is so fucking heart breaking. You know what blogspot, be my bro, be my listener please. What can i do.. my ego doesnt allow me to talk to thomas abt this shit.

Insonmia

Hmm.. It near 2am now, and yet im stil unable to fall into sleep..
Have been suffering insonmia for days already, undoubtedly its going to happen again 2nite.. Shiet..
It gets me frustated all the time whever wake up on the next day due to insonmia..
Thinking tat most of the reasons could be the stressness on assignments, and getting less interest in study recently.
Crap!! Need help of getting rid of insonmia.. Hmm...

sitting on a chair in city-east computer pool

Its approx 10pm now, taking a short reccess from studying.
huh, going to have my first paper on the next tuesday (principle of economic), argh, the troublesome thing is, i will have to go to a nearby bus station and take a bus to the exam ground which is approx 15 mins from the bus station. how nice if i could just do the exam at my campus as i did in my previous study in Curtin University.
Well, enof rest here, gotta resume to my studies X(

Wool Worth!

According to wool worth's notice, saying that it is going to be opened by 17 of june 2010, which is 2mr.
huh, i have been looking forward of the opening of wool worth for a long time ( i mean approx 2 month), which MEANS, 2mr the WOOL WORTH is opening!! Just cant wait to get in there and buy some stuff.

Inscrutability..

3 weeks time to go for exam, never know it can be that fast.. o.0
This afternoon, i bought a lot of groceries from Coles (an Australia random hypermarket) for preparing to do this battle with exam.
After submitting my last assignment on this Thursday, i am going to fully engaged to study, May be starting to be seriously busy after this Thursday.

Rainy day

Emotion: Moody status

Another raining day. Its freaking cold already, please STOP!! MR HEAVEN!!

Not sure of what is the reason that making me cant sleep the whole last night, no matter how hard i have tried like rolled on the bed, close my eyes hardly, just couldn't get into sleep. A maybe, i am missing her or depressing of my assignment. I don't know. I don't know. Im so scared, so scare of losing you. I just don't know.
And so, to kill my freaking cant-sleep time, i resume to my property assignments.
Until 5 o'clock in the morning, it was the time to send Billy and Alex to airport, hmm. not sure when are we going meet again, Billy + Alex, in near future? or maybe no more? Bro, do not forget me no matter what happens. X) Again, Bon Voyage! and take care!!

Goodbye to Billy and Alex

Never set a time to sit down and talk to Billy and Alex. And so, they are going to leave us very soon, which is 6am later depart from Adelaide to his country Thailand.
Well, bro, Bon Voyage..
A quote saying: Friends are forever indeed, Till death do us part!!
Take a lot of care in Thailand. We will meet again.